Woke up at 6:10. Got ready. Went to school. 1st block drove me crazy. Ms. LaPierre is STUPID! We are all going to fail her class because she sucks. 2nd block was fun. History always is. 3rd block study hall was full of DRAMA between Nate and Jenn. I don't know, I feel bad for them. 4th block sucked because we are working on our websites. Me and Michelle pretty much suck. I'm getting a B+ in that class, but I've barely started the website. I'm so going to fail! After school Michelle, Richie and I went to Saco House. We were there like 15 minutes before everyone else was. Then Amanda, Joel and Chelsea got there. Not even 10 minutes after, the place started getting really full. I don't know.. i've been worried and shit since sunday night. Today only made it worse. So I was in a bad mood. Amanda went outside with Delayna for a while so I got up and layed down in a booth thing. Not even 2 seconds later David and Kate were there to see what was wrong. I didn't feel like explaining it so I walked away. They followed me so I went back to where I was to begin with. Kate came and sat under the table, daivd layed on the other side of the booth. Ariel sat at the other booth next to the one I was in. Then everyone was there trying to cheer me up. WOW that was exciting. Amanda came back in so I sat on her lap. She told me she was kinda mad at me. She wouldn't tell me what it was. So I got in a worse mood. Then my mom called. She was around the corner so David and I had to leave. We started giving everyone hugs and I went to give Amanda one and she wouldn't give one back. So knowing me I took it seriously and got mad. After I gave everyone a hug I tried giving her another one and it didn't work. I got mad and walked out.. she said I love you but I was mad. I felt like a complete asshole for not going back and saying I'm sorry to her. When I got to my aunts I called Kyle to see if he was still with her. But he wasn't.. so I couldn't apologize.
David and I took a walk and talked about things. He kind of helped. Well, he understood where I was coming from. And he was actually able to tell me what he thought about things. Thank god I have that kid to talk to. But I don't know.. I'm still worried, because that's what I do. I probably shouldn't be, but I am. I'm paranoid to lose Amanda. And things keep popping into my head. And when my brain gets thinking.. it doesn't stop. One of these days it'll get me in trouble.
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apainlessyou) wrote,
worried
